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im azimah. im fifteen. im not really anything at all, but i try my best to get up and go. okay and this blog's pretty depressing. articulate links Myspace Multiply Ajie Berg Elmmy♥ Farhan Fhamy Hanes Julz Mondre Naem Nerd Raudhah Ryemie Sakina Sofie backtrack March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 |
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
10:47 PM  Took this from Cherating's beach. No biggy.Ive been really busy, and i think im gonna remain busy til like the end of the year. i'll update every now and then when i have the time. currently im down with fever and a cold and coughs, but im still going to drag my ass back to school everyday. time for a change. im not going to fuck this up anymore. im not going to fuck my grades up. And recently ive been down but its okay im trying my best to cope with these shit everyday. Its like a routine already. Okay, gotta get back to my assignments. Til next time, folks! TOP OF PAGE
Friday, June 26, 2009
2:11 AM You don't have to be so scared, you don't have to go tonight. I just need to hold on tight for one hell of a ride. And we lost it all just now to the nights that left you out. So we'll let this go somehow. But you're gonna be proud,so proud. And I just needed you to pick me up like you did when we were younger, when the lightning and the thunder had me clinging to your heart. For someone to lift me up when I'm down and I'm forgotten, you'll forever be my father and I'll be saving tears in jars for this one. How can I fit all these words into such a simple verse. It's the last time that we'll speak so listen to me please. Did you know that you're my heart and it hurts to be apart. And this cut it hurts so deep so sing me to sleep. -- paps do you remember i used to call you my hero. you used to carry me and embraced me warmly whenever i was scared and fragile. you used to tuck me in at night, and tell me stories. all kinds of stories that i know now were just fiction, but i believed them anyway. i believed everything you told me, you always knew everything, all the answers. the strength i had came from you. i wanted to be so much like you. things are different now. ive grown and youve changed. you say you love us so how could you do this? the spaces get wider and wider, sooner or later maybe you'd even forget all about me. but no. no matter how much shit i find out snooping around, shit that makes me angry and mad, no matter how many times i say i hate you, i never really do. maybe one day i'll fully trust you again, and you would love me like before. for now just help me find a way out from this, i still need you. you'll forever be my father, and nothing can change that. TOP OF PAGE
Thursday, June 25, 2009
12:16 AM hey yeaah bitches im back. i just published the previous post like 5 mins ago because the second i wanted to publish it on friday, the computer went nuts. so probably very little of you knew i was away. now you know why i never picked up calls or replied to texts. okay. now elmmy's away and i miss him already. ): actually i miss alot of people. my friends, all of them. very. very badly ): dont forget meeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~ but everyones changing. it sucks. hmmkay Cherating was not bad. took quite alot of pics so yeahh i'll put them up in multiply when i have the time. i think i got food poisoning from eating roadside food cause i keep vomitting and feeling lightheaded. nyehhh and i havent completed my goddamn assignments because the computer's a fucking bitch. but im lazy. plus im broke. yes very moody lately. its pretty recent actually. i saw something i shouldnt have seen. some people never change. liars. TOP OF PAGE
Friday, June 19, 2009
7:48 PM And tomorrow i would be flying off somewhere. Only some of you know about this so keep it on the down lowww. Well they were the only ones who bothered finding out how my holidays were gonna be like. Im leaving around dawn so im going to have to sleep early tonight! and when i return on the 24th, Elmmy's leaving for three days on a cruise to Redang. 7 days without him would feel like years now oh my god~ Apit woke me up this morning to tell me to meet him to get back my camera. Ok no, it was in the afternoon. Damn i sleep like a pig. But i wasnt the only pig. Cause when i called elmmy he just woke up too. So yeah i spent some time with him before 7 days of not meeting with each other. Ive been busy and a little distracted these few days. Only God knows why, if he had been listening. Yeah so thats mainly the reason why i havent been updating. A big F-YOU to you, for pissing me off the other day, just walking out on me. Im not fucking eating the medicine you bought. Yeah i throw it out the kitchen window when youre not looking. I'll lie to the doctors to make you look good. Let whatever's gonna happen, happen. I just dont fucking care anymore (: Heh so im pretty excited and a little sad. Im not going to get to see SF perform tomorrow, and im not going to see Elmmy for 7 days. TOP OF PAGE
Saturday, June 13, 2009
9:13 PM you know the one thing that ticks you off the most. the one that makes you feel insecure and furious at the same time. the one that makes you cry everytime you think too much about it. the one that tops the time your bestfriend stabbed you in the back. the one that tops the time you saw your dad texting "i love you"s to someone else other than your mother. the one that drove you to do stupid shit. the one that drove you drowning deep in the waters of depression, making you hope something good would fish you out and youre still waiting. the one that's making you take anti-depressants every morning. the one that tops the frustration of battling your eating disorder that you arent keen of stopping at all even if its killing you. the one that's still eating you up from the inside after so long. im still getting up and moving. but i cant shake this off. and i dont get why people have to be fucking _________________________! fuck. seriously. bad day, rly bad day. i need you now really, but fuck, someone said ________________. TOP OF PAGE
12:45 AM THIS IS HOW I FUCKING FEEL.To whoever who forgot me, you are a degenerate person, I blame you for humankind's regression into the darkness of ignorant slothfulness. TOP OF PAGE
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
2:35 PM6th June.  corny i know hahaha.          aaaaah my hair! the wind!       my face looks very weird here i dont know why. ok the nose.   and example of very bad eyebags due to late night CS playing.+ macam paham copy Julz' picture of Kurt's eyes. HAHA.    31st May.      "HEY!" :O -.-                 TOP OF PAGE |
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