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i have to calm down.
i hate this and i hate crying.
how could they, how could they not have listed my name down there!
why! why the fuck!?
im a pure literature student who's in english drama club with okay english results and i behave and the interview went well,
and they gave me hints that i was going!
so why?
cause ive been going for counseling cause i cant deal with problems at home very well???
cause i have fucking problems, and everyone else who gets to go is happy???
cause you guys think i dont really want this and that i wouldnt care if i got to go to UK or not??
goddamnit this doesnt make sense!!!

everytime, every single fucking time i get my hopes up and want something so bad,
I END UP CRUSHED.
so i was right.
feelings do hurt you.
and if you want something so bad and look forward to it so much,
it'll never be as good as you thought.
never ever ever ever ever!

lalalalaaaaa nothing is turning out the way i want it to be~~~~
whats happeninggggggggg

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so sweetie make it all go away
fly me to Pluto again.

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