I dont know how to feel. The week passes in a mixture of surprises. I have done well in my CAs. Not, perhaps, as well as i should have, but certainly not as bad as i thought it would be.

What's going on?

Everything is going the other way round.

Why are the nights getting longer?

I am so tired. I cant even feel my body anymore. I dont feel happy, or angry, or disgusted, or sad. But my brain tells me i should feel something. Am i severing my emotions along with my veins? But surely thats a reason to continue? Feelings hurt you. I dont want to feel anything. If you feel happy, something bad is bound to come along and spoil it. If youre looking forward to something, it'll never turn out to be as good as you thought. And feeling bad is just, the bottom of the pit. There is no light; no hope. It makes no sense. I make no sense.

If you dont feel anything then you can never be dissappointed.

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Okay so much for typing a long post this time. But im heading out in a few minutes, with my family. Yeah so maybe some other time. Wuuhuuu i feel like getting piercings. Hmm belly? Errrrr..

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